A Christian OnlyF star says she feels more connected to her faith since she started her porn business seven years ago, and now believes God put her on earth to help other women overcome sexual shame ‘to be free’ “. Courtney Tillia, 35, who lives in Los Angeles, said in an interview on Sunday: “God’s message is clear: I’m here to be a porn star. service method.”
The mother of four was a former high school teacher who found her life meaningless and her spirituality affected by it. “Before I stopped teaching, I felt super disconnected from myself and from God. I didn’t know what my purpose in life was or how to help others,” recalls the Los Angeles-based content creator.
In 2016, Tilia found the courage to leave class and open an OnlyF account with the support of her husband Nick. The former teacher admitted that she initially felt ashamed of her adult antics before slowly realizing that her strict Christian upbringing was the source of her guilt. “I had a lot of sexual shame myself in the beginning. I remember one photo shoot with a couple of porn stars and I was so emotional. I could feel society and religion judging me, and I was very aware of that,” explains Tillia .
“There was a part of me that felt her sexual choices and expressions were wrong and immoral. At that moment, I even felt that association was wrong — but it didn’t feel like God told me to,” she continued . Tillia’s OnlyFans career took off quickly, with adoring fans helping her escape the stigma she’d acquired.
Empowered by the joy she has brought to her new subscribers and the prosperity in her bank account, the freed mother said she realized her new career was indeed part of God’s plan. “I now reject any doctrine or system that presents God as a feared or judgmental entity. God is loving, not fearful; accepting, not judgmental,” she explained. “It is not our intention to suppress or deny things like our pleasure and sexual expression. Rather, we are to fully enjoy and embody them as God intended,” she added.
Tilia revealed she helps other downtrodden women enjoy their bodies to the fullest, saying sexual pleasure is “joined to God and sacred”.
Back in 2021, the grown-up actress revealed to the New York Post that she even started her own life coaching business to help other women embrace their sexy sides.